First Week of School….

It has been a real shame that the first week went by so quickly. I am not too sad about it, no lie, it was scary as hell. I didn’t know what to do with them, the bell schedule drove me crazy, I felt like my room didn’t have enough decorations. I was dying. But hey I survived and now about ready to end week 2.

Im going to try and remember all of the craziness that went on but in a nutshell

1st period has silent reading… these kids cant remember to bring books. Well for starters most of them don’t read, which as you guys know is something that is a little bit hard for me to understand. I am trying to encourage them to bring in ANY kind of book that they like. Some have brought magazines, which I have allowed for the time being (just trying to get them to bring something on a daily basis is hard much less criticizing them for their choice and then on top of it stopping them from reading in class at all). One kid brought in a book (idk from where) about STD’s. And when I asked him why hes like “cuz Ms. Its interesting.” I’m like “oooooh okaaaay.”

The same kid has me say hello and good bye to his muscles. He curls them up Rosie-the Rivetor style and tells me “Ms Morris! say bye to my muscles” then I groan and say “byyyyeee muscles.” In case you were wondering, no theres nothing there.

I know there is more that I am missing but it will just have to wait. Till then.

Count On & Count Down

I find it easier to define myself by what lies outside my house.

The friends, and love I have accrued from outside this realm have shown me to be a greater support system than what they probably should be. Why else is it easier to confess to them my accomplishments as well as my sins? It isn’t a growth of understanding but rather the obvious scaffolding that allows for the exchange to take place. It is only due to plans with them that allow me to get a grip on each hour that passes. Thank God for the countdown application on my phone. Each event, arrival, and chance of a new beginning are carefully calculated with the hope that some bigger change will come along with them.

I started the countdown the minute I entered onto college campus. This summer I thought it would finally stop ticking. All it did was reset for another 2 years.

Treat others… (4/32)

the way you would want to be treated. That should be a rule that no one could forget. Working the position I have now in retail it is something that I can honestly say many people do not remember from their kindergarten days. Regardless of age, gender, race, or social status no one should be allowing themselves to treat others as less than them. Especially now that the holiday season has come and gone there has been no change in the behavior that people display. I guess the worse is really the returns. Yes I understand that it is not the item you wanted, and yes I know it is not your fault that they did not give you a receipt for it but how can you expect me to do anything about it? Even less so when your being rude and condescending to my face.

Take for example a customer came in today and wanted to return an item. Having it be an electronic item I asked them what was wrong with it and if I could help. Their response “I called on the phone and spoke to so-and-so and you need to get them right away.”

“They’re not in the store right now I’m sorry but I can help you”

“No. Get me a manager.” while my poor manager was trying to handle 20 different things at a time and we were talking regarding 20 other things the customer decided to listen in on this very abbreviated conversation and once I told the manager “dont worry go,” (regarding a completely different situation) the customer blew up at me. “WHY DID YOU TELL HER TO LEAVE DIDNT YOU SEE ME THAT I NEEDED HER TO DO THIS EXCHANGE!!”

Of course trying to be nice I answer in a very calm tone “she is coming back she needed to take care of something first.”

“NO YOU SENT HER AWAY! I HEARD YOU! YOU TOLD HER TO LEAVE FOR SOME SCORPION BOOK!”

“Ummmm….. I didnt send her away. She had to go take care of something that was pending before you came to the counter.” (and then Im sorry I just have to give her attitude for her foolishness) “I’m sorry but by attempting to ease drop on the conversation after I told you that she would take care of you meant that you only got half of a message which was intended for another customer. Like I said… she will be back after she takes care of an issue that was occurring before you came.”

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Like  said treat others the way you would like to be treated. Don’t go into stores raising hell because that wont get you anywhere. Just because your the customer does not mean your always right, especially when the policy is written on the paper we give you. Be nicer to those around you and the chance of you getting what you want, especially if its not company policy and is an inconvenience to the other person. Believe me it makes a huge difference. But you dont have to take my word for it, what do I know? I’m just the person behind the counter. ;)

“I Don’t Like Suprises” (3/32)

Its the phrase my mother always manages to say to me regardless of age, situation or context. Somehow the inevitable question arises and I am left speechless leaving her to not only utter the phrase but also meet me with the frown drooping under the weight of  disappointment and the downward casting eyes which embody the idea that “its  to be expected “as her head shakes slowly back and forth. Sometimes if I’m lucky I get a large sigh before and after the whole ordeal as if its my fault that I cause her so much grief and if it wasn’t for me everything would be stress free. That I am denying her heart from a vacation on the beach, margarita in one hand and the latest copy of Vogue in the other.

“I don’t like surprises” usually refers to any “bad” thing that I have done. That everything was as sweet as a can of peaches until I work my way into the room, my black sheep costume zipped up to the neck. She says I “lack initiative.” Little does she know the amount of time that goes from the event happening to me trying to figure it out so I can present it to her. Even if the “surprise” was a surprise for me and I have to fight to come to terms with the set-back, in the end it doesn’t really matter. I have to relive my own personal disappointment with the added benefit of having to carry hers as well.

It was kind of the last thing I needed today, this mini confrontation of misfortune, on my part that is. B. just left and I spent all morning trying not to think of him leaving, which of course just left me thinking of the fact, and fighting the urge to drive down there and cling onto his ankles as he packs up the apartment screaming hysterically “DON’T LEAVE ME! PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME!” Dramatic, maybe, but it really doesn’t change the fact that I was a little worried he would dump me for being so ridiculous. B. manages me well and while I have dealt with this situation before, the one with my mother, it was nice when he was physically here to rub my back and make me laugh. It still hasn’t set in yet that it will be 2 months till I see him again. Part of me still thinks that I’ll be seeing him tomorrow just like our normal schedule. And probably tomorrow I’ll extend the feeling and think Wednesday, Thursday, Friday until the final realization. Its hard and no amount of back rubbing will change that.

Occupied Hands, Eyes and Ears….

I feel like there are so many things that I have been juggling since I started Christmas break and am in love with it would be nice to share as the year and the break ends.

Hands:

Right now I am definitely  engrossed in the book The Strain by Guillermo Del Torro. Those who love, and know the craft, of the old school Bram Stokers Dracula would love it. You know whats coming and its worth wait that makes it count. The plane, the coffin, you are totally engrossed into the mindset of how Dracula would work with out the Edward Cullen shit of glitter and vegetarianism. Its part of a trilogy and I am taking my time with it because while the first two have come out I dont know when the third will and dont want to be disappointed through the wait. The website is pretty awesome as well.

ArchEnemy, the third installment of  The Looking Glass Wars, has me excited to see where its going to go. A YA novel it took too long, in my opinion, to come out and I know that I have lost some of my initial gusto that was there after reading the first two. Its the story of Alyss, who is the Queen of Wonderland after defeating her evil Aunt Redd. Or so we thought. Now Redd, who was banished, and the King of a neighboring kingdom are trying to get rid of Alyss. The awesome part if that Frank Beddor really uses the characters and takes them to new levels. The Madd Hatter is not a loony person but rather an extremely calculated individual who is the Queens bodyguard, his hat changing into different weapons etc. The Cheshire cat works for Redd and its an assassin, using his cuteness to get close to the prey and then attacking. The cards and chess pieces (think original Alice in wonderland not the Disney one) act as part of the Queens army. I love the first two books and am hoping to get into the last one as well. They are considering making the series into a movie. You heard it hear first! Remember I read it before anyone was even talking about it! ROFL

Lastly I am also reading The Secret Diary of a Call Girl by Belle de Jour. While I have seen most of the series itself, it was a British one that they began showing on Showtime, and its great. Its a frank look at love, lust and yes the job of an escort. While the blog, which became uber popular then complied into a book format. Im sorry to say that unfortunately since I had watched the series first I am trying to match up the book to the show and it lacks much of the charisma that the actress brings to the story. Due to this its taking me a while to get through it but I am determined to finish.

Eyes:

FINALLY! I have picked up watching Dexter again,and boy is it so worth it. I love it! Season 4 was amazing, minus the death of a certain blonde, and the whole Trinity Killer aspect was captivating. Now we’re taking, getting back to the roots from the first season. I was addicted. Though I do have to say, and no I am not being biased for Dexter’s side, that Quinn needs to back the f-k off. His character is way to suspicious of everyone for no reason. Its odd and unwarranted. Now moving onto the 5th lets see where this one goes. I think that much like the 4th I will be consuming this in a matter of days.

I have also re-discovered my Sex and the City seasons which I had always watched on tv and out of order so now the goal is to go through all of them IN order. Totally loving it. For those women who haven’t watched them and whose only knowledge is what they have “heard” you are greatly mistaken. Its a funny spin on relationships, dating, friends and of course… sex. Its like sitting with the girls over coffee or drinks. Love it. (Though I do have to say the first few seasons are not very fashion forward, and btw Carrie chain smoking isnt cute). I know your supposed to say that your more one girl over the other but I kind of feel (and I may not be alone in this is which is why the series may be so popular) is that I am a little bit of each girl. An obvious choice is Carrie who is not only a writer, her narrations are similar to the ones in my head only without the sarcastic tone, and her doubt in relationships is something I can definitely say I also embody. Samantha well hello anyone who knows me would know that connection. Charlotte embodies all of my ambitions for the future and Miranda is the rare practical voice in my head that comes up when it comes to getting down and dirty with academics/business. I love spending time with “the girls” and those who dont know them should really give them a chance. Ask my sister… who laughed her way through 5 episodes without even noticing.

Ears:

This year has definitely been dominated by a few albums. The first I would say was Norah JonesThe Fall.” Its just an overall good album. The songs are well rounded, the progression is wonderful and the lyrics are simple yet concise. I have burned through 2 copies of this album and suggest for everyone to get one for themselves.

and one of the best (and last) song on the album which if you listen to the lyrics you can figure out who (or what) shes singing about…

And lastly the one other cd that has left me totally amazed is the debut album from a band named A Great Big Pile of Leaves. I had the extreme pleasure of seeing them in concert while they toured with Say Anything and their music is new, chill and definitely fresh. Makes me think of the perfect day at the beach, encompassing the drive over, the time in the water and the sun, and then ending with the drive back home. You can actually download their cd for free (well 11 of 13 tracks) on the website and believe me I bought it for 10 bucks at the concert and I can honestly say it was the best 10 bucks I probably spent all year.

http://www.myspace.com/agreatbigpileofleaves/music/songs/Vampires-In-Love-70750369

http://www.myspace.com/agreatbigpileofleaves/music/songs/We-Don-t-Need-Our-Heads-70750279

Holy cow….

Where in hell did the year go??

There are so many times, as I’m sure you all know, when I particularity thought that it would never end and yet…. here we are. December 31st and I feel that there is just way to many thing to have to take into retrospect before being able to continue into the new year.

The decision to go back to school was a big one and one that wasnt taken lightly. Though I am fed up with the whole school process ie. homework I do love being in class (sick I know) and am looking forward to the day when I am a teacher myself. Hopefully I can maintain the insight to make the assignments at least relevant to the class AND OF INTEREST because God knows that some professors are lacking in that area. 2 classes left: one Chaucer (bleh) and the other an ESOL (vomit) and afterwords I will be ready ;)

I guess the biggest thing to come into my life is B. I am exited and thrilled to have him in my life and after almost 1/2 a year I feel at peace with at least that one side of my life. Cheesy yes definitely but after dating so many “boys” its nice to have a man.

I know theres more that I want to say but it will have to wait till tomorrow. Today has been a long day.

The Wonder Woman: Aimee Mullins

An Introduction to Aimee Mullins

Aimee Mullins was born in 1975 in Allentown, Pennsylvania. At the age of 1 she was diagnosed with fibular hemimelia, meaning that she was born without the  fibula bone. The fibula bone, also known as the calf bone, is located on the lateral side of the tibula. The top connection is made right below the level of the knee-joint but does not form any part of the knee. The lower point of the bone form the lateral part of the ankle joint. The fibula bone is used not to carry the weight of the person but to provide balance and stability to the leg.
The doctors  gave a  depressing diagnosis of Mullins being unable to walk and being confined to a wheelchair for the rest of her life. It was consequently decided by her parents that the best the chance at a mobile life. The operation to amputate both of her legs below the knee occurred on her first birthday. By the age of 2 she had learned to walk on prosthetic legs. She began her love of sports enrolling in anything physical and always with in the group of “able bodied” children.
Aimee Mullins attended school with “able bodied” children and graduate high school with honors. She later became 1 of 3 students in the US to receive a full scholarship from the Department of Defense. At 17 she was the youngest person to have/hold top secret security clearance at the Pentagon. She spent her summers working as an intelligence analyst. She attended the School of Foreign Service at Georgetown University, and began training for the US Team for the Paraplegic Olympic 1996 Atlanta Games. She began training with Frank Gagliano, and became the first woman to compete with a disability in the NCAA league. It was here that the Cheetah legs were born. Mullins was the first to wear them and considered the official “guinea pig” for the project. Wearing the legs Aimee Mullins set a World record in the 100 meter, the 200 meter, and the long jump.

The Cheetah Legs

The Cheetah Flex-Foot is a trademark for “a stored-energy foot prosthesis containing a J-shaped plastic beam that acts like a spring when the wearer walks or runs.” Each leg is cut from a flat sheet of pressed carbon fiber, and molded into a fluid J-like curve that connects at the base of the knee and runs all the way to the tip of toe, and where it curls up. The carbon-fiber blades act like giant springs helping  to mimic  the mechanics of biological feet. They absorb the runners energy only returning about 80% back to the athlete. The blades require 25-30% less energy to run at the same speed as with biological legs.

Components include:

•The “Full Length Toe Lever” helps improve walking symmetry
and reduces impact to the limb.
•The “Proportional Response” are the heel and foot components that are customized to the user’s weight and level of impact thus
reducing the fatigue of the user.
•The “Active Tribal Progression” aids in the vertical force that is placed through the heel. It helps reduce the need of the user to actively  push the body forward allowing for a more natural and
reduced walking effort.

Aimee Mullins in the Public Eye

Soon after her success on the track Aimee Mullins landed a 10-page feature in the inaugural issue of Sports Illustrated for Women. She became interested in the issues regarding body image and how fashion impacted the outlook of the public.
In athletics, the idea of possibility is presumed,” she says. “It’s not ‘if,’ it’s ‘how.’ And that is how artists, and fashion designers, and musicians see the world. It’s not possibility, it’s potential.” – Taken from SI Issue.
1999, she made her runway debut in London under the invitation of world famous fashion designer, Alexander  McQueen. For the show Mullins wore hand carved prosthetic legs made entirely out of wood. The event landed her the covers of ID and Dazed and Confused. She was then named one of  People’s Magazine’s “50 Most Beautiful People in the World”

Running on High Tech Legs

Synopsis:

In this interview Aimee Mulin’s is chronicling her disability through her career as an athlete. She begins by briefing the audience in her education at Georgetown, which was with  a full scholarship studying International Affairs. Though she had played softball, and skied though her time in high school and it was idleness at not being active that drove her to investigate the athletics at the University. She mentions to the audience that she had never met another disabled athlete and had only competed with able-bodied athletes till this time. They have track meets with disabled runners and Mullin had decided that this was a perfect time for her to go check the races which at this time were taking place in Boston. The only pair of legs that she had ever preformed in were made of “a wood and plastic compound, attached with velco straps and big, thick, 5-ply wool socks.” At the meet people were wearing legs made of carbon graphite and containing shock absorbers. And although she was different from the pack in her first race and beat the national record holder by three hundredths of a second and became the new national record-holder. It was at this time that people recognized her talent and the fact that she needed someone to guide her leading her to train with the lead coach at the school. As she quickly became the best in the nation, in comparison to her paraplegic wise, she began racing again with able bodied athletes. She ends the talk by demonstrating to the audience how she uses her prosthetic legs and how she adapts in them to her surroundings, displaying her legs that look like “normal” ones as well as the cheetah legs which she uses for competition.

Reflection:

Its nice for her to describe the first meet that she went to with her seemingly out-of-date prosthesis and the looks that she received from the other athletes. While it is easy to quickly point out the biases and outlooks from the “able” community to the “disabled” community, it is another thing to have the discrimination within the “disabled” community because one of its members does not have the latest and most high tech options of equipment on the current market.

Her relationship with the coach is a very unique one as he is looking at her as a challenge and not in the way of “how can I work with what you have” focusing largely on the disability,  but rather a large scale of “what can you as an individual achieve.”

At 6:30 she tells the most awesome story of her on the track and the blunt encouragement she receives from her coach. Though no one in her life “pitied” her it is obvious that tough love can be used by all.
At 13:00 she begins to remove her “pretty legs” and the audience really gets a chance to see what is going on physically. It is interesting to know that the gaze is solely on her but since she is in control of said gaze it doesn’t have the harmful affects as one unwanted and in public.
Here she changes her legs to the Cheetah ones and I quickly realize that I too am staring at her during this process. Through this video I am allowed to watch her and get a bit of education on the application of the legs, the components and how she as an individual lives with them.

How My Legs Give Me Superpowers

Synopsis:

Aimee Mullins begins her talk with her recent experiences at a children’s museum. The kids were ages 6-8 and brought with her a bag full of legs, and laid them out onto a table. Betting on the kids innate curiosity she asks for the children to be sent into the room for them to investigate.  Due to the rule of them coming in with out adults Mullins was able to ask them their thoughts and explore the possibility of interchangeable legs with a child’s imagination. After her first TED presentation (the video featured above) Mullins asked for designers, engineers, and innovators to help design various types of legs to stretch the human imagination.  Mullins then discusses the way she is perceived by society, ie. due to the wonderful, and lifelike legs that she adorns many people do not perceive her as “disabled.” She then goes into detail describing each of her 12 pairs of legs: from the cheetah to the “glass” and the “wood” allowing for the audience to then see how the human body can be made into many different things allowing us to be beautiful in many different ways.

Reflection:

I feel that it is through this discussion that Aimee Mullins addresses many of the things that we discuss in class.  Her “social experiment” involving her “bag of legs” with the children is further proof that biases and this fear of the disabled is something that is taught and learned, not an innate component of the human psyche.

She mentions that the children would be “trained” to see her disability. When during the experiment they are the first to see the potential in her circumstance. I feel that in her lecture and what we’ve discussed in class there is a huge weight in being able to “un-train” what we have learned about disability and like these kids much of it will have to come from exposure to the different bodies society has. If it is something that you have seen before there is no reason for you to stare in the same judgment.

At the 3:50 mark Aimee Mullins describes the disabled “look” and that because she is disabled people are surprised at how attractive she is. Yes she “doesn’t feel disabled.” Through much of the reading that I have done on her she is very willing to admit that her “ability” is what makes her unique and sets her apart. And most importantly that at time it is in fact the envy of others. The scenario is an interesting one as we’ve had numerous  discussions on the idea of “fixing” individuals in class and how some wouldn’t take it. It is evident that Mullins wouldn’t.

Later on in the work she speaks on how the “conversation with society is changing.” While I feel that she has gotten the better half of the conversation, we have read in class and spoken of our own accord how disabilities are discriminated against, I think that she has managed to tap into a new outlet. Her art legs allow for her to again, control the gaze of the population, and channel the views of artists to help redefine herself as an individual.